As I celebrate myself; nothing else matters...

“Glimpse” - “When I see her I lose a bit of myself”

Marriage is not between two bodies; it is a divine union of two soul-mates. I am married for the last forty years and have known my girl for the last fifty years. Today, I am an eighty year old soul who feels lost all of a sudden. I can’t remember a day feeling so blue in the last fifty years when she was with me. We also had to go through a lot of ebb and flows like any other couples. But, this day on my death-bed I clearly see what kept us sailing through the violent tides, it was the “UNFLINCHING dedication” and “FIERCEFUL PASSION” that we had towards each other.

I am a before independence master-piece and the concept of Love marriage was a complete boycott during those times. While India struggled for its Independence from British, I was waging a war in my mind on deciding if she is the “LOVE OF MY LIFE”. I had aversion towards the concept of marriage but, every time I saw her I felt a deep sense of connection and it became stronger as the days passed by. I cannot fathom those feelings I had for her, but I knew that it was not “LUST”

It was a Sunday morning, she stood by the gate of her house drying her long wavy hair, and it is so fascinating that these memories are still so alive in my so called “BRAIN-dead” body. I walked straight into her house and her lawyer dad was sipping his morning coffee while her mother was busy with the morning chores. She stood near the curtain and I could hear heart race at the speed of light; her beautiful wide eyes filled with tears and her fair white skin had turned blue out of fear. My parents were in complete disagreement with me and I could anticipate their reaction as well.

We both had decided to leave our families behind to start a new world of ours sparing our parents from the culture shock they had to go through. We moved far, real far away from everyone to an unknown part of the country and set-up our family. Undoubtedly, there was a lot of vacuum without our kith and kin but, I realized one thing; I had not made a mistake.

I had chosen a right woman for my life and I owe every bit of me to her; even while I am on my death-bed; the only thing that my mind craves is for the warmth of her body, a million dollar toothless smile and the lovely twinkle of her eyes with my reflection in them. I have always spoken to her eyes and even today as I breathe my last; I am seeing her right in front of me.

I call myself the LUCKIEST man in this world, love hidden in the heart may go unnoticed but in the eyes of a WOMAN that reflects her man in them – never let such a person walk away from your life J